Grief that will be heal for a long time

السلام عليكم

I'm sorry for not writing blog for a weeks . Yes , I think for a week . It's because my grandfather had passed away last Sunday-February 27, 2011 and his birthday on July 27,1928, so could see what's the common , it's 27th , and my birthday is May 27,1995. I absent school for three-four days I guess . How do I feel ? Are you okay? That's the common questions ever since I came back to school today . The answer is No . Definitely, No . I couldn't believe that he's left me and his entire family . Eventhough I'm just his grandchild , I felt the lost like I lost my own parents . He and my grandmother take care of me when I was one years old . That's definitely showed how closed I am with them. When I saw his Modenas motocycle , I feel grief , that motorcycles I sat and be pillion whenever he asked me to accompany him to eat roti canai, goreng pisang and so do bought toys like yoyo and sort of . Then , when I'm growing up, I didn't do it anymore . Also , he's cannot ride the motocycle anymore because his children didn't give permission to do so . He's had accident so many times , but thanks Allah , he's still strong . Alhamdullilah , he's could say Allah before last breathe. I know my grandmother is the one who felt the lost . I definitely crying so hard when I got that news from my father . I just couldn't believe it but I should accept it . I should be strong , but strong is not enough for me to stop my tears from running . He's always in my mind whenever I sleep or wake up , whenever I'm happy or sad . He's always in my heart and I always recite Al-Fatihah for him in my solat and my doa too . May he rest in peace . Al-Fatihah for Abdul Ghaffar bin Ahmad .

This is just gaze ,
Raya 2010.

The last Raya with him .
Al-Fatihah .
I still got a lots of picture with him , but I couldn't upload it .
I'll take a look whenever I missed him and always pray for him in My solat . Amin :]