Perasaan

Salam alaik.

Haiii la.
Mid sem break is going to find and end by tomorrow.
I die.
Test, quiz , test and final.
It's not that I''m afraid to take all of this thinggy.
I't's all about expectation .
I hate it when there's a bunch of people who always put high expectation upon me.
My parents. I repeat my parents not my family.

Somehow, it's giving me mountain of pressure which I can't even handle it.
I'm a normal teen who loves to enjoy sometimes.
Enjoy?
Nahh dont get me wrong.
Enjoy in a manner way.

I used to have a various kind of penyakit yano.
Before es pi em.
I couldnt even get up from bed, puke out every single time.
That wasn't cool at all.
I didnt get the chance to retake my agama paper during trial.
I got sick during SPM.
Because I was really stressed.
I hate it.
I hate myself.

But now, Ive set my mind.
Learn your knowledge because of Him, I can assure you guys wouldnt get tired.
I let myself to be calm doing every assignment.
It's not that I dont give a damn about it.
Just do it little by little.
I lost myself once because group project was really damn stressful.
I only managed to get only B on that subject with the help of group project which was fundamental of algorithm .

I let myself not to worry about test,quiz and exam.
Because hasbunallah wa ni'mal wakeel.
which means Cukuplah Allah penolong kami dan Allah sebalik pelindung.(3:173)

So yeah. Itu curhatku. Curhat yang membuat jari jemariku pantas menaip papan kekunci komputer ribaku.
Aku mengharap semangatku yang junjung ini tak pernah luntur meski ada yang berusaha menyemaikannya untuk perlahan-lahan luntur dan terus hilang.